Today marks two. Two. Whole. Years. Two years since the air
hasn’t smelled the same. Two years since the leaves started crunching a little
different. Two years since my heart was broken -- shattered, into tiny little
pieces. I’ll never forget that morning,
or all the things I did that week leading up to that day-when all things came
to a screeching halt.
Death. It doesn’t
just sting. It downright hurts. It comes and it takes and gives nothing in
return. It robs us not just of what we had, but of what we thought we had. All the future memories. Gone. The birthdays we were going to celebrate, all the Halloweens we had left to dress up.
Death takes it all, and replaces it with tears. Buckets and buckets of salty
tears. And two years ago today marks two
years since death came and it stung hard.
It tore away the baby in my arms and it left me gasping for air. It
burned. It gouged. It was more than a sting.
So today we just sat and reminisced. We reminisced the burn,
because today, today it’s just a sting. We reminisced the memories, and we
reminisced the memories that came instead.
The ones I never planned--not the birthdays that didn’t happen--but the
relationships that DID. The tears that have been spilt, and the conversations
that have come. The friends that have stood --stood tall like oaks, and the
family that has been faithful. The love that has been poured, poured all over us,
because of the sting.
And just like that we celebrate being closer, TWO YEARS
CLOSER to eternity. Two years closer to having every tear wiped away. Every. Salty.
Tear. There’s a song I can’t sing
without crying and it goes, “When we arrive at eternity’s shore, where death is
just a memory and TEARS ARE NO LONGER. We’ll enter in as the wedding bells
ring. You’re bride will come together and we’ll sing YOU’RE BEAUTIFUL.” And
like clockwork the tears pour, because my tiny little soul can hardly imagine a
day where death will be just a memory. It can hardly believe a day when the tears will
never come. It can hardly believe a day when the STING will be GONE!
"'He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death, or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.' He who was seated on the throne said, 'I am making everything new!' Then he said, 'Write this down, for these words are trustworthy and true.'"
Revelation 21:4-5
